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directors that were so immature that were so poorly suited to managing a
cacophonous, chaotic, entropic, multi-headed, cluster fuck of an organization.
He adds, “I had a little more maturity and original discipline having been at American
Greetings. I didn’t know it at the time. I thought American Greetings was stodgy,
boring, unimaginative, uncreative and risk adverse. I didn’t appreciate the fact that it
had a lot of humanity and frankly was a rather mature organization. It was much
more so a nurturing and professional environment that developed people in a healthy
way for responsibility, change, ownership and leadership. Whereas the dot.com
world, man you just call yourself what you want print your cards go see a V.C.
at breakfast get the check at lunch and start buying a ton of fancy office furniture
running around the country on impulse and whim meeting people in airports all the
time they’re the chief fill-in-the-blank officer of some company that sounds like an
African word and I didn’t know what the company did or what it was for and I
thought I must really be dumb. I must be so old and out of it. I meet this guy and I
say I don’t know what it’s about but it sounds cool. I couldn’t possibly describe what
he did and neither could he. When marchFIRST threw me overboard and the
company went down in flames and the dot-com bubble tanked, I was one of
hundreds of thousands of people where the dot-come tide went out real fast and we
were stranded. . .”
Steve soberly reflects on the way things were and is cautious not to have the same
expectations in today’s economic landscape:
“CEOs, derivative trading, and flipping house and stupid money and dot-com
blowups and all that shit is shit. You know what enough coke. It was a great
high. So what? We were throwing $700 bottles around at the hot clubs. Big fucking
deal. Now I got a hangover and I feel emptier than ever. People want to fill
themselves with something that’s meaningful, authentic and nourishing to the soul . .”
“. . . After 2000, the economy tanks and I’m freelancing and looking for projects of all
types. It included everything from building furniture and doing sculpture commissions
here and there as I was able to find them or people were able to find me. We are the
tail that the dog wags. For a moment, we felt like we were wagging the dog.
Freelancers are absolutely dispensable commodities. Particularly now and it’s such
a sellers market for jobs right now. Right now I’m interviewing and looking for jobs
and I’ve adjusted my expectations. I know I’m not going to have the six figure
income that I had back in 2000.”
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